This has gotta be my 88th attempt at blogging (that's not a very close approximation... I've just lost count to be honest). Not that my previous blogs weren't successful. My very first one was quite good -- I loved doing it and I had a small following of some sort. But I closed it down because at one point I just didn't feel like blogging anymore.
After a few months I started another one, but again I closed it down after a while because I no longer felt like sharing my thoughts with the world. I was going through a really rough time then, and what I usually do in the face of impending depression is: I retreat into my own world, and turn the outside off. Which is what practically everybody does in that situation I suppose.
After that I tried blogging again a few times. Everyday I kept thinking up things I was itching to blog about, but because of my track record I talked myself out of it. That didn't stop me from starting a few up though. Obviously, I ditched those blogs. So here we are again.
What's different now? What makes me think I can keep this blog alive, knowing that I let so many others die? A few reasons:
I'm now officially separated. Kicked him out of the house once and for all. So I don't have to worry about him wandering in while I'm in the middle of blogging (I hate the looking-over-the-shoulder thing).
Because of the separation, I have more control over my time now.
My 4-year-old daughter just started school, so I have more free time. I'm a full-time mom (since day one), so free time hasn't always been easy to come by.
Here's hoping.